You water the mountains from your chambers; from the fruit of your labor the earth abounds. You make the grass grow for the cattle and plants for people’s work to bring forth food from the earth, wine to gladden their hearts, oil to make their faces shine, and bread to sustain the human heart.” Psalm 104:13-15
As I listen to the rain pour outside my window, I think about all that has poured into my life, just as God waters the mountains from His chambers. Although my spiritual journey began when I was younger, it wasn’t until several years ago it was truly awakened. The one thing that fueled my spiritual awakening was the Eucharist, “the bread to sustain the human heart”.
When I was a child, my parents did not take me to church regularly. I went to various denominations, whatever church invited me and my siblings to go to, we went. I didn’t know anything about the Eucharist as a child. I do recall people going up to the alter in a line, including my parents, when we attended a baptism at a Catholic church. I had no clue what it was but even then I believe I was being drawn to the Eucharist. Although I did not know what all this was or meant, I felt like something was missing when I went to church. I later did learn about the Eucharist when I attended RCIA at a local Catholic church but I still did not really know what it truly meant, especially to me in my spiritual journey.
It wasn’t until several years ago that the realization of the Eucharist and it’s impact on my faith journey bore fruit, pouring into my very being an abundance of grace. When I truly recognized Jesus in the Eucharist, I longed for it. My desire for the Eucharist was immense. It became the spiritual food that fed me. It strengthened my desire to read and understand the Bible. It helped me to endure the heaviest cross I’ve had to carry. It made forgiving easier and loving even easier. I yearned to sit in the presence of Jesus in the Eucharist. It was there that I recognized the Spirit and could hear Him speak to me. I took refuge in His presence and adorned all He has sacrificed for me. I embraced His love for me and learned to love myself and discover my worth in His eyes. Just as God watered the mountains to bear fruit on the earth and sustain life, He poured out life into my heart and my soul through the ultimate food on earth, His son – present in the Eucharist.
After communion one day, my daughter asked me why so many people cry after they receive communion. I smiled, I’m often one of those people, and told her that perhaps they are thanking Jesus for His sacrifice for them and the love He gives through the Eucharist. For me this emotional flood gate is knowing what the Eucharist truly is, not a symbol, but the true presence of Christ, that pours into my heart. It is knowing that at each Eucharistic celebration He is being sacrificed as I also sacrifice myself by releasing my will into His as He becomes present within me, consuming me.
Are you being consumed by Jesus? Are you being spiritually fed, sustaining your heart? Are you embracing Jesus as He pours out to you in the Eucharist? Is He bearing fruit in your life through the sacrament of the Eucharist?