“The wind is strong, the water is deep; My heart is heavy and my mind won’t sleep; Oh can you heal, my fear it breathes; I need to know if You’re the shadow I can see; I wanna run to You when the waves break through; I wanna run to You and not turn back; There’s no turning back; Nothing in my past; My eyes are on You again; Can’t see nothing at all; But Your outstretched arms; Help me believe it; Though I falter; You got me walking on water; The ocean’s singing, the song of grace; But if I’m honest with myself, I am still afraid….” Walking on Water by NEEDTOBREATHE
Ever felt like you were on the mountaintop of life and then stumbled, falling into the valley? Or perhaps you were walking on water and lost your focus as life hit you from nowhere and you began to sink?
Sometimes our faith may be tested and we lose focus. Our trust in God may falter. The things we feel we have overcome and conquered find there way back into the cracks of our inner being, leaving us breathless, hurt and afraid. The great thing about our faith is that God knows we are going to fall off the mountain or sink to the bottom of the deep waters but He is there each time to pick us up. God reveals this to us in Matthew 14:27-32. Upon Jesus’ command, Peter begins to walk on water towards Jesus, but when he becomes afraid and takes His focus off of Jesus, he begins to sink and cries out to Him, “Lord, save me!” and “immediately Jesus stretched out His hand and caught him.” When we take our focus off of Jesus when the storm frightens us, we may falter but He will stretch out His hand each time and lift us back up.
Today I found myself reflecting on my own moments of faltering as life hit me like a train. The things I thought I had overcome and put beside me knocked me into the deep waters. The strength and trust I felt I had built up over the years, began to crumble like a wall that had been hit by a wrecking ball. This song “Walking on Water” by NEEDTOBREATHE and the passage in Matthew 14 speaks to my heart so much in this season of faltering and losing focus when life feels out of control. It leads me back to the truth of my faith, that even in the moments that I feel helpless, God is there sorting everything out, calming the storm as He lifts me from the depths of the sea of self-pity, fear, doubt and whatever other feelings that are surrounding my core of His grace and love. Of course, as I watch this unfold I see my faith and my trust strengthen a little bit more. In Isaiah 43:2,4 I am also reminded that as I “pass through waters, [He] will be with [me]; through rivers, [I] shall not be swept away. When [I] walk through fire, [I] shall not be burned, nor will flames consume [me]… [I am] precious in [His] eyes and honored, and [He] loves [me]…” His truth breathes life into me as He reminds me who I am in His eyes and how to depend on Him in the storms of my life.
Dear friends, what will you do when the storms hit and the walls begin to crumble? When the winds are strong and the water is deep, will you focus your eyes on Jesus? Will you turn your back on your past and walk on the waters of life into His outstretched arms as He calms the storms in your life?