“For I know well the plans I have in mind for you, plans for your welfare and not for woe, so as to give you a future of hope.” Jeremiah 29:11
In my last blog, I wrote about how much Jeremiah 17:7-8 described my journey and how amazing my journey has been.
I want to start by asking if you have a unique descriptive of your journey? Can you see your story still unfolding before your eyes? Does your past surface from time to time, unraveling more of your path ahead?
What if the story continues to unfold by taking the deeper wounds illuminating and enhancing the new creation that God has reshaped from the dust? What if the most painful memories were surfaced, skimmed off the top, fired up, crystallized into tiny jewels and used to ornate the outer surface of the newly formed you?
A few weeks ago, I sat in my study frozen as I held several pieces of paper that were written in my hand writing. The only movement was the droplets falling from my eyes. There were things written that I had forgotten about, had buried. They were words that brought grave painful memories rushing back into my mind. As I read the words on these papers, I felt like I was trapped back in a place I had traveled as the pain stung so sharply deep within me. I knew I didn’t want to be in this place, yet it was something I had to do.
Going back to that place, uncovered an area I have not dealt with along my amazing journey. I can’t tell you how many times I feel like I am totally healed from my past and then something else surfaces that causes me to look deeper, to realize I have more cracks to mend. This was exactly one of those moments. As my eyes peered through each page I had written and the hurt rushed in, I knew God had more He wanted me to see. I had more work to do, there was more fruit to bear but I had to first pull up the weeds and lay down the new soil.
Our story is written, yet our journey of being refined is never complete. The purification, the reforming is a known fact in our spiritual journey. It is allowing ourselves to be vulnerable to look deeper within and uncover the areas that need refining and/or healing. To move closer to God’s perfect plan for us is allowing Him to shed light on the dark areas in our lives, to illuminate them and bring goodness from them. I always like to go back and compare my refinement to the process of purifying gold or the formation of a diamond. It takes extreme conditions to form this precious metal and valuable gem, just as it does in us.
Next time your past surfaces and the flood of emotions roll in, take a look deep with in and see what gem God is perfecting to ornate the outer surface of His new creation in you because He is not done with you. He is inviting you to uncover more, to move forward, closer to Him.
Just as in the lyrics of Tauren Wells song “God’s not done with you.”
There’s a light you don’t notice
Until you’re standing in the dark
And there’s a strength that’s growing
Inside your shattered heart
God’s not done with you
Even with your broken heart and your wounds and your scars
God’s not done with you
Even when you’re lost and it’s hard and you’ve fallen apart