Do you wrestle with stillness?

By joannsblog2016 on August 18, 2018 • ( 0 )

“Be still and know I am God.” Psalm 46:11

Do you struggle with stillness? What is God saying to you when He says “be still and know I am God?”

A couple of years ago this verse danced in my head and I questioned what it really meant to me, what was God saying to me when He said be still and know I am God?

A few weeks later, I had gone to see my eye doctor just for a regular exam so I could get some contacts. As I’m sitting in the chair, my doctor looks at me concerned and began asking me a series of questions. He asked if I was dizzy and having headaches. I looked at him very confused and slowly stated, I was fine and no I hadn’t been having any issues with headaches or dizziness. He explained to me that my optic nerve looked swollen. He said it could be one of two things, it was swelling, which would indicate neurological issues or there was calcium deposits causing it to look like swelling, which would affect my peripheral vision. He referred me to a neuro ophthalmologist to run further tests. Of course, like most people, I go home and search the internet, not very wise. Everything bad under the sun comes up, heightening my anxieties. I made an appointment to see the specialist. I spent an entire day undergoing several exams on my eye and was becoming very concerned through each exam. After all the tests, she still could not make a determination what was going on with my eye and made me an appointment at another facility to have an ultrasound done on my eye. I was alone and frightened as none of these tests revealed a definitive answer. I had a couple of hours before the appointment for the ultrasound. I found myself longing to go sit quietly in a church. I found a church just down the road from where my ultrasound was scheduled. When I walked in, I noticed they had Adoration in a small chapel. I went in to sit, to “be still,” with Jesus. Being there brought about a calmness and tranquility and all my anxieties on what could be wrong with my eyes were gone. I was in a state of stillness and I knew that God was in control. I knew that no matter what the doctor found, this was part of God’s plan in my journey.

Now, when I read that verse and contemplate its meaning, I know that God is telling me, “relax, I have this figured out, you are mine and I am your God, your Heavenly Father who loves you, who has a plan for you and all things in your life.”

Being still and allowing God to be God, does not mean you have to go to a church or a chapel and find complete solitude or quietness. You can find this stillness in your home or outdoors. God is all around you and anytime you find yourself needing to be still, find a comfortable spot, pause and allow Him to reveal to you that He has everything under control because He is God. This stillness is a moment of focus on God in all matters in your life.